C*R*A*Z*Y*

Yep, the title says it all.

     On Monday, October 15, 2012 I did something CRAZY. I quit my job. No it wasn't entirely unexpected but it was sudden. Things at work had been, well strained, for a while now. So while it was CRAZY, it was not bad move. Here's a little back story for you........

      I have worked at exactly 2 places since I have been an adult, both places have each been for a 5 year span, totally 10 years. The first place was basically difficult from the beginning, bad boss, hard to work with fellow employees, etc.... Well I lasted 5 years until I decided I couldn't take it any longer and left that position. For 2 months I languished at home, terrified that I was never going to get another job, alas the day came when I finally got that job I wanted. I went to work for what I thought at the time was a nice, family oriented man; instead I got an ASSHOLE for a boss. It became obvious pretty quickly that he would be difficult when it came to the silliest things. He never wanted anyone to take time off, not sick or vacation. He never took time off and only thought of his bottom line.

Fast forward to 1 year ago>>>>>>

     I needed to have an almost emergent partial hysterectomy (I had developed a massive infection that wouldn't/couldn't be treated with antibiotics.) Per my Dr.'s orders I was to be out of work for 6 weeks, no if, and, of buts. I had messed up earlier in the year and went back to work too quickly after getting my tubes tide (this caused the infection.) I went to my boss(the Dr in my office) and explained what was needed and how long I would be out. You would have thought I asked him to pay for it, he flipped out.

     Being out of work without my income was hard but we made it. I went back to work and things became difficult. Every time I would take time off I would be treated badly for days afterward. As time went on I decided to find a new job and cut my loses with this office. In April 2012 I resigned my position and prepared to start a new job with the local Hospital,. On what would have been my last day a fellow employee abruptly quit, leaving the office very short staffed. Out of the goodness of my heart I agreed to come back and work for another week to help fill in the gap. Long story short I was convinced to stay, thus turning down the job at\the hospital.

Fast Forward again>>>>>>>>>>

     August 2012     I have struggled for a long time with depression and anxiety issues, to put it mildly I hate life. In August 2012 I had a mental breakdown that put me in a mental hospital for 4 days. I was placed there on a medical hold ( thus preventing me from leaving) My boss lost his mind during this time. He threatened to fire me, sue me, etc..... I was a bad person (employee), I was losing him money, I was just trying to get disability, so on and so forth. Stupid me and stupid husband decided I needed to go back to work and find a way to make do with the situation. I lasted until October.

     Now here I sit, cleaning, cooking, selling, blogging, happier. I feel like a brand new person since I quit. It was like something was broken inside of me and leaving there fixed it. I LOVE being at home, I LOVE being here when Katy gets home from school. I LOVE cooking dinner, cleaning the house, taking care of my kids. I had forgotten what it was like to be on my own schedule instead of someone elses. While financially we will struggle we can make it. Harold makes enough money to cover everything, just not leave much wiggle room. We will have to cut back, make smarter choices, be adults. We Can and Will do it. Mentally and Physically I need this, I need the ability to look at my life and see what I want, not what everyone around me wants. I need to be able to relax and live a little.

     With all of this comes this blog. I will make this my journey to a new and better me. You will get to see me struggle, succeed, and be a happier person. My plan is to blog about my life, my family, daily odds and in (food, cleaning, purchases, sells, etc....) Hopefully you will follow me through this and help me come out better on the other side.

     Here's to being happy, healthy and wise.